I am a Homoeopath and will try to answer your question in a Homoeopathic perspective. You must have had a serious and unexpected conflict in your life just prior to the development of the disease 6 years back. The development of lymphomas were to be considered as defence mechanism of the body. But the medical science has included it in a malignant group of diseases and so the very verdict about the diagnosis must have put you in very panicky states. This again worsened your conditions. The very feeling of undergoing chemotherapy
and the courses of chemotherapy you have taken have all worsened your physical conditions. The present symptoms of bleeding etc. can be due to the bad effects of the drugs as well as due to the general deterioration of your health. The recurrence is because you have not resolved your conflicts mentally and you are adding your conflicts by being panicky about the disease now.
As a Homoeopath, my advise is to approach an expert homoeopath at the earliest and feel the relief Homoeopathy can offer you. Your letter gives me enough idea how much worried you are. This will not help you for a cure. Try to have positive thoughts of getting cured. Homoeopathy can surely help you.
My best wishes for a speedy recovery through Homoeopathy.
Dr. C. J. Varghese