Hi there ~
I understand your concerns. MDMA or ecstasy
can cause you to have these feelings of out of body experiences or depersonalization
and derealization when you are high on the substance. I also believe that your speech may be affected during the acute phase and long term use may lead to irreversible brain damage
. I also believe that you should be worried about your medical health. I also think that you may need to consult with a psychiatrist
to get the appropriate testing and studies done as well as treatment initiated in a setting that would not let you access to drugs. Rehabilitation
will help improve your condition. I wish you the very best in your recovery.
I hope this helps. Take care and have a lovely day!