Hi there ~
I understand your concerns. It seems like you did like the high when you smoked marijuana for the first time, however it was not enough to get the same high the next time around - a symptom of dependence. I also worry for your general health and tiredness
and wonder if you need to see a doctor for those issues. I also believe that you have reason to consult a psychiatrist
who specializes in substance use disorders. I also believe that you may still be in a haze due to smoking
marijuana and therefore the sensation.
I hope this helps. Take care and have a lovely day!