I've been having depression issues for quite a long time now. At first, it wasn't much of a problem but it's getting harder and harder day by day. I can't sleep (in the last 5 days I only slept for 6 hours). Basically the reason for my depression were my parents. They fought a lot and I was usually dragged into their fights somehow. I was scolded for no good reason. They yelled at me all the time. I wasn't allowed to leave the house either. It home to school and school to back home. But I got used to it. Later the few friends I had betrayed me iver and over agsin and I cut contact with them. After I got promoted to the next grade, I made new friends but they also betrayed me. Since then I've had serious trust issues and can't discuss my problems with anyone. I am unable to trust anyone. Now my parents have gotten even harsher and I don't know how to deal with them. I have to keep all my rage inside. I've now started to hate everyone, my friends, my family. My depression is at it's peak. Insomnia is killing me and I have to go to college everyday too. I'm 17 and thoughts like suicide and running away cross my mind everyday . I've tried many cures (as stated on the Internet). I don't know what to do. I need help.
I don't really have any bullying problem but over the time I've started to gain weight and I am often teased because of it and I do mind though I keep silent about it.