Hi there. From your history & the clinical features you describe, it appears highly unlikely that you will have any HIV
positivity or AIDS! If my understading of your psyche is correct, it is pure venereophobia. Dont worry this feeling is common. It does not matter if there is one or many transgressions. It is all a state of mind. Might i recommend 2 things to help you.
1. Meet a counsellor/psychologist
to help you tide over the feeling
2. Do a PCR test for HIV (DNA testing) that will help be more specific as opposed to the Elisa
which i presume you did...this will put your mind to rest once & for all!
One swallow does not make a summer! Neither is one mistake the end of life..life goes on & one has to put it behind & continue. Do practice safe sex
though..ensure condom usage.
I do hope have managed to calm your fears & reassure you. Please do take time to send in a feedback. I note with interest that of all the queries i seem to have answered on the public forum, not one has got back saying thanks for taking time off to answer or even to send in a complimentary review. Certainly if we doc's can take time to write in, patients' can also voice an opinion..would love to hear you are better...take care & dont worry..you are not alone in your stand. Do wish you a happy long satisfying life.. you seem like you could do with some good wishes & hugs..so consider it done!Cheers!
Dr Praveen Rodrigues MD
, Cosmetologist, Venereologist