Hello and welcome to Healthcare Magic. Thanks for your query.
I understand that you are going through a difficult time and it can indeed be very distressing to have uncontrolled symptoms despite being on medication. You seem to be with your multiple psychiatric problems and hence it requires a detailed psychological assessment to figure out what these intrusive or 'automatic' thoughts are due to. They can be a due to your OCD
or can even be a due to a psychotic disorder
Since your symptoms are very distressing and you are also having suicidal ideas, I would advise you to consult your psychiatrist
for further management options. There are many treatment options which can be tried - both in the form of medication and psychotherapy
, which can help you with your problems.
Wish you all the best.
Dr. Jonas Sundarakumar