My name is jaimee krawczyk. I'm extremely worried that i might have bipolar disorder. I need to know if i do. My emotions are like a rollercoaster. Waaayy up and waaayyy down. And they're very sudden. I never know what i'm going to get hit with next. When i'm up, i'm really hyper-- not my normal self. When i'm down i'm either sobbing uncontrollably, or hostile, angry, and yelling at people and starting fights. When i'm up i can be way to confident in myself, but when i'm down i'm waaayyy to low on self confidence. I don't sleep too little, but rather i am almost always tired and wanting to sleep. When i'm up, anxious, and nervous i talk really fast and almost nonstop. I have struggled for a long time with thoughts racing through my head to the point that i can't slow my mind down. I can be easily distracted, but i'm usually pretty good at staying on track. When i'm up i can be sooo energetic that i actually need to clench my fists to try to channel it. Very abnormal for me. When i'm down i literally don't want to do anything at all. I've never really felt so social i needed to call people in the middle of the night. Most of the time i'm actually more antisocial and not wanting to be around people. I have not been more interested in sex lately. Actually it's the opposite, i've been far less interested in sex lately. I used to do things that others would view as risky, foolish, etc. I used to drink excessively and do risky sexually explicit things when i was drunk. However, it has been over 2 years since i have been drunk. Money spending of mine has not gotten my family in trouble. I've always been in living situations where i'm not in charge of the money to prevent that from happening. These things cause me serious problems. My family abandoned me. I can't work. I'm always fighting/arguing about almost everything, stupid stuff. I can't control it. Nobody in my family has bipolar disorder or manic depression. I used to live with my mom. She doesn't believe in doctors or getting help when it's needed. I've begged her sooo many times growing up to let me get help, but all she would ever say is, "u don't need a doctor. U need Jesus. Suck it up. Everyone gets depressed."