Dear Dr.,



hope this email finds you well.



let me go through my whole story that begins since 8 months ago. i was driving back from Abu Dhabi back to Dubai and i suddenly had a thought of creating an accident, i was alone, i don't know why i had this thought, so i told my fiance about it. after that i had on daily basis these thoughts and begin feeling afraid of driving the car, then these thoughts began to expand to more thoughts like hurting my self or somebody and it was so worse. i was living in a small house and this made me more depressed and i felt lots of dizziness and lack of concentration and blurred vision. after that i went to Lebanon for rest and i visited Dr. Hana Azar, she gave me Zoloft 1 tablet per day, magnesium 2 tablets per day and 1 tablet Xanax, i really felt worse and more depressed and severe dizziness and horrible feeling with more suicide thoughts, so i went again to lebanon and she was surprised about these results. anyways she gave me instead of these medicines, Paxil 25 mg per day in the morning, 2 tablets deanxit per day and 3 halves Xanax, i felt better after that and i was improving. i talked with her again to begin stopping the medicines, so she asked me to stop Xanax and i did so, whenever i stopped taking 1 tablet of deanxit, again i felt worse and dizziness as if i'm drunk, so she asked me again to keep taking deanxit and Xanax and Paxil. i still have these suicidal thought by hurting my self either by a knife, while driving the car, till i reached a point that i'm afraid to drive or to use a knife or any element that might hurt, in addition to the dizziness. in the mean time, i'm taking only 1 tablet deanxit and 1 tablet paxil 25 mg per day in the morning, i'm feeling better now but still have these suicidal thoughts but minor and when i wake up, drive and going to a mall or a public area i feel that my head is shaking, dizziness in addition to a headache as if needles are in my head and cold sweating. I'm not sure if this dizziness is from the anxiety or from the medicines or i have any illness that i didn't figure it out? i don't know????



please i need to stop taking any medicines because its not healing me and i need to live normal life like others.

i need to feel good before my marriage which is on September, i don't want to bother my wife here in Dubai with my mental issues. I'm fed up with this situation as i have been for 8 months. i want to stop medicines and return as i was before. by the way i shifted to a new big house in Dubai to try it if i feel better, but nothing is working, and i cant go to Lebanon in the meantime and i don't want to see any doctor here in Dubai as i don't trust them.



i want to stop taking medicines, to drive in a comfortable way, to live a happy life like before. i want to feel afraid of hurting my self like before. i want to love life like before. i believe that life is a challenge, whenever you expect something good also you need to expect something bad, but the situation that i am passing is not only bad it's worse ???? and i need to pass it safely and get rid of it especially before my wedding and forever.



by the way i feel that the suicidal thoughts get more whenever i feel dizziness, so i need to get rid of these dizziness and the medicines as well.



many thanks in advance Dr. Amine for your appreciated support.



I'mlooking forward to meet you once i go to Lebanon.



please don't hesitate to ask me any question regarding this but please help me to get rid of all the above and be a normal man living a normal life like every human being.



thanks a lot,