I am Swachetana. I am not happy with my life. I dont have anything to live. Have you ever seen the continuas death of your dreams?? my carrier has lost, I am a looser nothing alse. I just can not bear this pain that I am loosing everything. Everybody around me is successful. I dont know how long I can bear this pain. I am 27 years old, married. and I am only daughter of my parents also. If you see me nothing is absurd in my life. But ........................... My father suddenly got cardiac problem, that time I was there in Anmdhra Pradesh. i came and i stayed in Calcutta for his treatment. two months I stragulled against death. At last He survived. Just after this my husband lost the job. and I went there with him. but every day is just impossible. I also started trying for job but don't know whethere the world is agianst us or not. I can not speak to anyone, can not cry, can not do any thing so that I get some relief.