My name is Jim. I am a 47 year old man, I have a diagnosis of Chronic Severe Depression. I am also a "hopeless" alcoholic, I have tried numerous times in the last 20 years to quit drinking with no success. I am in chronic physical pain, NOT depression pain, real physical pain. I have spinal injuries starting in my sacral spine going all the way up to my cervical spine. 4 injuries in all including Cervical stenosis. I am unemployed, I am a truck driver by trade but a DUI conviction this last summer has left me with no license and no way to earn a living. I am living with my estranged wife who is hostile to say the least and she has given me until 3/8 to get out of her house. I have no where to go, I have no money and I just can't take it anymore! I am seriously considering suicide as a solution to my problem. Not today but, I can't find any other acceptable solution to my problem. I wish that I could get ECT, I think it might help me think more clearly but, I don't know how to go about getting it. Please, if you have any answers, please help.