I have been diagnosed with ptsd for aboute a year now i am on medication 7.5mg of olanzepine and 30 mg of paroxetine and the tablets arent helpin im co stantly haunted by nightmares which has lead me to bein afraid to sleep and having a bad case of hypervigilance im afraid that somethings gonna happen to me so i spend my nights patrolling from window to window like a soldier constantly lookin for danger im scared to go out the house i havent gone out properly in over a year the only place i go out is to my doctors and psychiatrists and thats by taxi i dont sleep for dayz untill my body finally gives in on the third or fourth day and i fall asleep im startin to get my nightmares mixed up with relity i wake up still finking im in a nightmare or a dream i feel like my subconciouse hates me and is constantly atacking me in my sleep with horrible things happenin to me i cant explain it its horrible
everything that happens to me during they day like little things for e.g people i talk to on facebook or the food i eat or what i watch on t.v my brain soaks it up and uses it against me in my sleep im everyday i wake up batteling to keep my sanity and i cant do it anymore im begining to think im crazy ive come to grips that theres a possebility ive lost the plot please help me your profesional advice would be much apresiated