I was diagnosed with depression in December and am on anti - depressants. Sometimes if things are going bad and I feel out of control, I buy pain killers to regain control. When this happens I hear voices, some of which tell me to go through with taking the pain killers whilst others tell me to take myself to a & e. I've also started to feel really paranoid, during the day I'm ok although I sometimes feel as though people are talking about me and laughing at me. At night, I lie awake scaring myself at every noise thinking someone is going to break into the house and kill me. A knife recently went missing in the kitchen and I was terrifed someone had broken in during the day and they'd come back at night to kill me with the knife. Today I found it so I'm a little less scared although I know that if my boyfriend falls asleep before me again tonight, I'll lie awake scaring myself at every noise