had entercutaneous fistula r/t total colectomy that went wrong in 2010, had drainge tube for months draining green ,copious fluid, eventually repaired, now, left upper abd quad to left back flank where a huge phlegman sizr ofsoft ball grewover night july 2010, sx, wound vac required,now, having chomping, chewing, eating feeling insideout, grinding pain fear could be the fistula is tearing, breaking down, due to serious constipation_which i shouldn thave after total colectomy, doctors say I am to complicated. i had DNR, living will, advance directiveon my chart, but, was placed on life support trach, multi abx s,then life support again after transfered tospecialty rehab, fearthis is tearing causing the eating, chomping, grinding feelings having, these are NOT spasms, , I know the difference. Your thoughts/ on totaldisability, I m a Registered Nurse forced to take early medical retirement. financial hardship. can t afford even all meds,,,I must stop for your opinion,,,didn t realize there was a fee. second time on life support, I had temporal lobe shocking every trwo hours to keep me completely still, impaired cognitive ly