I'm a 20 year old female. About 5'4" and maybe 126lbs. When I was 15 I was diagnosed with depression and have been on a few different types of anti-depressants along with a low dose anti-psychotic to help me sleep at night. I stopped taking all pills however because there was still this dooming feeling that no matter how great at things I do or how often people compliment me, I still felt like a failure -- so I thought I was misdiagnosed. I have been in college for two years now and I see a counselor here as well as the psychiatrist. She, again, diagnosed me with depression because I was struggling in school and worried about my mom back home. After 2 months on the pills, I still couldn't focus in class, I would have no desires to even go to my class. I would look at my homework and just cry because I boiled with frustrations and thoughts that I was going to fail anyways and never understand the materials. Now I seem to cry over the smallest things in life, like if my computer freezes or I get an answer wrong in class. Sometimes my resting heart rate is 126 which is extremely high for me. I don't have diabetes and as far as I'm aware no high cholesterol or blood pressure. Sometimes I get so frustrated I cry for hours and scream at people who try to help. It feels like anxiety but sounds like depression and I just want to be able to focus and raise my GPA without crying every few hours. Help?