I was abused as a child both sexually and physically. I went through teen years and early adult life with lots of friends and put the abuse in the right place. I was a baseball player and was very good. I was in college but did not have the money to go for another year. Therefore I went to a Marine corps recruiter. I told him my problem,because I heard the service had sports teams. The recruiter said they had a baseball team and I could play baseball in the Marine corps. I made the recruiter put in and amendment that stated I would be released immediately if I was in the draft. Well because I was not playing baseball because the recruiter lied,they took me out of the draft. They eventually discharged me ,but it was too late the draft had come and gone. I tried to get another chance by returning to college. I was on the winning team that went to the college world series. I got no offers.After the season my friend asked me to play for their college. I said ok thinking this was my last chance , at this point I had injured my arm and the college was in a little town in N.C. I went through fall baseball and did not see any scouts.I felt really depressed. When the fall baseball was finished I kept thinking about the draft I was in and went to a doctor who said I was depressed and prescribed me Seriquil . That night I took all the sample bottles the doctor had given me. I tried to commit suicide. I am a veteran now and getting my psychiatry help through the VA. because I had a rough 10yrs where I could not function I kept thinking my wife was cheating on me. I was obsessed with her and it was scary . They found a group of medication for my bi-polar which no one in my family ever had. My oldest sister was scysofrenic ,but that was from also being abused as a child and adult. My Question is does my being stuck in the Marine Corp and missing the draft,which depressed me enough to try and commit suicide have any significance with my being so depressed over the years?