It seems like you are in trouble. For someone to experience adult ADHD
at 51 years is not a good thing to happen. I understand your concern.
I am sure you would benefit by a direct consultation with Psychiatrist
at the earliest. Please do not hesitate to seek help.
I am glad that you know your problem better. There are many responsibilities that you have to keep up with. You will surely do well by seeking a consultation. Please use the below link to get the doctor in your city.
Hope this helps you.
I wish you get back to normal life soon.