Hello and welcome to Healthcare Magic. Thanks for your query.
I understand that you are going through a difficult time with your depression
and suicidal thoughts. Since your depressive symptoms appear to be persisying despite taking medication, it is very important that you let your doctor know about this, so that further management plans can be made accordingly. It is common to have hopelessness during depression and have thoughts like you won't ever get better. But, please remember that this is just a passing phase and you will soon be able to come out of it.
I would also encourage you to keep taking to someone close to you - a close friend or a relative - so that you can share your thoughts and feelings. This will make you feel less burdened, or more supported and hopeful.
Wish you all the best.
Dr. Jonas Sundarakumar