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Your symptoms are related to depression
. There is no need to loose hope, as very good treatment available for depression. Also ventilate your feelings to some of your close friend or family member.
As you are having suicidal ideas then it is better to seek help today itself.
For long term treatment of depression following measures are helpful: relaxation exercise, medicines like SSRIs and non drug treatment like CBT. It is better to get evaluated by psychiatrist
and start treatment accordingly.
But keep regular follow up with your doctor as medicine may need alteration in number and doses according to treatment response and side effects.
Same time do some relaxation exercise like daily brisk walk, yoga
and breathing exercise
, which will help you in fast recovery.
Wish you all the best.
Dr Ashish Kumar Mittal