Hi there ~
I understand your concerns. If you have smoked meth
for a long time and are using more and more of it to get the same high, it is very likely that you are dependent on the substance. I also believe that your talking nonsense and hallucinating visually i.e. seeing things which are not present are indicative of intoxication on meth. Paranoia
is also very common. I would highly recommend that you consult a psychiatrist
who also specializes in substance use disorders in order to quit meth, and marijuana. I wish you the best in your recovery from addiction.
I hope this helps. Take care and have a lovely day!