Hi there ~
I understand your concern. You seem to have a common anxiety
problem which is called OCD or obsessive compulsive disorder
or a personality issue related to the same. I recommend that you see a doctor as soon as you can. I hope a psychiatrist
can adequately help you with your condition using medications. Also your condition is treated with psychotherapy
as well, who can counsel you out of this problem. I hope this helps.
Take care and have a lovely day!