Hi there ~
I understand your concerns and you probably have clinical depression
. I also think that you might have anxiety
which is affecting the way you function in your daily life. There are very effective medications to deal with these symptoms and they can be obtained by consulting a qualified doctor or psychiatrist
. I would also consider therapy or counseling to help cope with your current condition. You may also have a small amount of psychosis
affecting your mental health condition. I hope this resolves with the right medications and support system. Take care and have a lovely day!