I'm constantly tired and i can't get to sleep properly because i usually wake up about 2 or 3 times throughout the night. However, sometimes i can sleep and i'll just sleep for a long time and when i wake up i'll still feel very tired. When i get home from school usually the first thing i do is eat something and then i just fall asleep again, or sometimes i don't eat something as i'm that tired i don't even feel the want to. This doesn't help with my school work or my grades either as i never have time to do my work at home and when i do i never have enough will power to make myself do my coursework or my homework. I think my sleeping also may affect my appetite as it's never too brilliant and i don't often feel that hungry. When i'm actually in school i don't mind too much because i have my friends there but when it comes to working i find it hard, i don't find the work hard necessarily but i find it difficult to concentrate and focus on the set task; I often get headaches during lessons because of this also i think. I hate waking up for school because i know the day i have ahead of me will just drag me down as i know i'm behind with various different subjects in the respect that my coursework is incomplete or in the respect that i just don't put enough effort into the subject anymore as i don't physically think that i can. I also have fairly bad confidence problems, i'm very self-conscious but when it comes to doing a speech or a presentation or even just reading aloud in the classroom it actually sickens me, i hate it; it makes me feel faint and almost like i'm actually about to cry and it sends me into quite an awful shakey unhappy state at times. I usually feel quite low throughout school days due to the fact i'm behind on work, i try my best to put it to the back of my mind and stay happy which my friends often help me to do and so does music, i love to listen to it or just play on my guitar, it makes me really happy because it's what i enjoy doing, i love it. I usually have to try to work out when i can get my work done but even then when i say i'll do it i don't end up doing it. Also due to my sleeping problems i'm late for school nearly every day which doesn't help me with my punctuality reports that will be sent off when i apply for college which will only be next year when i have to do that as i'm 15 years old. I just can't motivate myself at all with everything i've got going on at once really. I'm not too sure what's wrong with me.
Asked On : Sun, 6 Jun 2010