Hey Ana, I had the same problems with adderall
and I was convinced that I had something seriously wrong. After catscans and tons of trips to the hospital, it turned out the only thing wrong was my addiction. I'd take 5 pills a day, stay up for days straight and sleep for two weeks because I took my whole bottle and had to wait to get the next one refilled. I was stuck in that horrible nightmare for almost 5 years! I know what your going through because I was there. I did go to rehab, which helped but was not the real solution to my addiction. I've never been religious, but one night when I found myself looking into the bottom of another empty pill bottle, my life was transformed as I hit my knees and cried out to Jesus from the pit of despair that was the rest of my heart. I was hopeless, scared, anxious and depressed and for so long my only solution was more adderrall. A week after that night, I woke up in a rehab center in downtown Cincinnati and God had completely healed me from my addiction, physically and mentally. I was in a rehab center with a bunch of crack heads and heroin
junkies, but for the first time in 5 years, I was happy and full of joy and peace. I'll never forget the first time my dad came to visit me in rehab. He was a hardcore marine for 20 years and I had never really seen him cry, but after he saw me and the change in my life, he balled like a baby and thanked every single person that worked there personally and his words were this, "I just spoke to my son for the first time in 5 years!" it was then I realized that drug and my addiction had robbed me of my life for years. If you ever wanna chat or need help, please facebook me, my name is Claude Crane... I'll keep you in my prayers and just know that you are loved... Check out the song "cry out to Jesus" by casting crowns, it helped me through some rough nights.