It is really sad that you are feeling so upset at waht you are going through.
The help that you can get, fortunately or unfortunately, depends on where you are living.
If you are in the developed world, there are many NGOs or other organisations like the samaritans, counsellors, help lines etc who can help you. The first line of call if you are in UK (and Europe I guess would be the same) would be your GP and they will be best placed to signpost you to the appropriate people/organisation. If you are in the USA, I guess it would be your local family physician.
If you are in the asian continent, then a confidant in your immediate or extended family would be the best person who can help out. TAKE CARE THAT THIS PERSON WHO YOU APPROACH SHOULD BE THE ONE WHO IS TRUSTED BY YOUR PARENTS/OTHER FAMLIY MEMBERS AS WELL.
in effect, I am telling you that you can be better helped by primary health care rather than a psychiatrist
who is considered to be a tertiary care health professional.