Dear Welcome to HCM We understand your concerns I went through your details. I suggest you not to worry much. The best method to overcome any mind block is prayer. Sincere Prayer provides you with such a power and tranquility, every mind block gets removed itself. You do not have even to try. I am suggesting this from my experience working with cancer and and trauma patients. We, our team, worked wonders mixing prayer with modern therapy and medicines. Trust me, prayer works. If you require more of my help in this aspect, Please post a direct question to me in this website. Make sure that you include every minute details possible. I shall prescribe the needed psychotherapy techniques which should help you cure your condition further. Hope this answers your query. Available for further clarifications. Good luck.