Thanks for writing in.
I do understand your predicament.
Your entire history is suggestive of an anxiety
disorder which is leading to the symptoms you are currently experiencing. This commonly occurs when we experience a lot of stress
due to some reasons and we cannot take the stress any longer. The fact that you need to support your family adds to the stress.
The following measures will help:
a. Identify what you really want in your life and make them your long term goals
b. Decide the best path to achieve these goals and break the journey into small, achievable goals
c. Congratulate yourself or treat yourself whenever you achieve one of these small goals
d. Start with setting down to achieve 1 goal at a time. Once you’re done, start with the 2nd one and go on.
e. Whenever you feel you can’t do it, take a few deep breaths and start over again.
f. Pranayama and yoga
will help you a lot and will help treat the anxiety that you are currently experiencing.
g. Give yourself a strong message that if you cant do it, nobody else can.
Try this for 2 weeks and see if it helps.