The constant focus on dirt and cleaning most probably points to a possibility of Obsessive Compulsive Disorder
). A more certain diagnosis would require a detailed assessment of all your symptoms, and/or a face-to-face evaluation.
Preoccupation with thoughts regarding cleanliness (i.e. obsessions) and repeatedly cleaning the room (i.e. compulsions) are common in OCD, and are associated with changes in certain chemicals in the brain. I can understand your feelings of worry and anxiety
, but please be assured that this is an illness and has many treatment options. There are effective medicines available for OCD; also, psychotherapy
has also been proven to be very helpful.
Please approach a psychiatrist
immediately, and I am confident you will benefit from the treatment.
Dr. Saifuddin Kharawala