Hi there ~
I am glad your first stop was at a forum for health care like this one. You acknowledge that you have a problem with alcohol and nicotine
. Dependence on these chemicals is common and sometimes it get to the point where there is not just psychological dependence where you cannot stop thinking about it but you also have physical dependence where your body gets acclimatized to the substance and you cannot do without it. I would advise that you see a substance abuse
counselor and get help with consulting a psychiatrist
for hospitalization for deaddiction from alcohol. I hope this helps.
Take care and have a lovely day !