Don't be so upset because it is not only yours problem. Now Depression is the 3rd most common disorder in the world and within 2020 it will be the first.
However after knowing your problem I personally feel that to come out from this sort of frustated life you need to take a Multidisciplinary Approach which will be very helpful for you. What is it?
Let me explain.
This sort of anxiety
and depression occurs due to imbalance in the Neurotransmitter
(Chemicals that act on nerve
and brain). Several social factor like unfortunate events, problem in relationship, history of past bad events, your surroundings as well as medical condition may contribute to this abnormality of chemicals.
1. MEDICINE- supplement those chemicals from outside actually or functionally. However in difficult cases medicine can cure upto 50 to 60 %. But you have to keep patience because for severe depression
you need to take those for 9 to 12 months and that also should be ragular.
2. COUNSELING- which will change your approach to several problems in life which will help you 20 to 30%.
3. Finally your surrounding social-economical pressure, relationship, other stressful events contribute to the rest 10 to 20%. This you can not change directly but can alter to some extent by life style modification.
so if you approach in this manner it will be easy for you to get the solution quickly and then getting back to your normal healthy life will be just a matter of time.
THANK YOU. Best of luck.