Let me help you to ease your problem.
The feelings of homosexuality
have aroused early in your childhood and they have been persistent. There was a point when you were comfortable with it. I suppose you got addicted to it as it made you happy.
Marrying a woman involves sharing all aspects of life including sexual life. The worst possible case may be that she may not accept your homosexuality.
Also, your feelings are more gay and inclined towards it.
These feelings are normal and accepted well in society. You may opt to be in a homosexual relation and move ahead in life.
In my opinion, you should stick to your feelings and thoughts. Please talk to your family openly and I am sure they will accept your preferences.
All the best.