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We understand your concerns
After carefully ascertaining your problems I could come to conclusion that your symptoms are purely psyhological in nature. We should not overlook psychological disorders. Mind you, I did not say Psychiatric, it is Psychological disorder.
If you go for treatment with a general physician, they will definitely say there is nothing wrong with you physically and they are correct. The symptoms you mention are not conventional at all.
Let me be more clear. Psychological problems present non conventional feelings and they are not same with eveyone.
I suggest you to consult a psychologist
or psychotherapist who should be able to help you because your history and other aspects are to be ascertained before coming to a proper diagnosis.
I hope I answered your query at least partially. Feel free to contact mem if you need further help.
Get well soon.