Welcome to health care magic
I can understand your situation. I appreciate your effort to seek online support.
As per your details, you are possibly experiencing a depressive episode. For this consult a psychiatrist
for detailed evaluation. Following treatment strategies would be helpful-
1) Antidepressants like SSRIs (escitalopram, sertarline, paroxetine
), TCAs, SNRIs etc.
3) Relaxation techniques
like yoga, meditation
, deep breathing etc
Hope it helps
Dr. Gourav Monga