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You appear to have severe depression
with some personality issues which is leading to harming self. Considering your symptoms severity you need urgent treatment from psychiatrist
. You may require combined treatment in form of medicine and psychotherapy
Till that time, communicate your problem to family members and do not remain alone.
I hope this information has been both informative and helpful for you.
Wish you Good Health.
Dr. Ashish Mittal