Hello and welcome to Healthcare Magic. Thanks for your query.
Your symptoms could be indicative of a psychotic disorder
. Your psychiatric problems seem to be compounded by your drug abuse and medication abuse and the dosages of Clonopin which you are 'abusing' are definitely dangerous. Please stop self-medicating yourself and seek professional help. I would advise you consult a psychiatrist
for a detailed psychological assessment and further treatment. There are effective treatment options - in the form of medication or counselling
which will help you overcome your problems.
Wish you all the best.
- Dr. Jonas Sundarakumar