Hello and welcome to Healthcare Magic. Thanks for your query.
You seem to be in the midst of a depressive episode. I would advise you not to sef-medicate yourself without a proper consultation and evaluation. Moreover, anti-depressants should not be taken on a "as required basis", but should be taken for continuous periods as advised by your doctor. So, I would advise you consult a psychiatrist
for a detailed evaluation and further treatment. There are effective treatment options - in the form of medication or counselling
which will help you overcome your problems.
Wish you all the best.
- Dr. Jonas Sundarakumar