Hi and welcome to Healthcare Magic. Thanks for your question...
You seem to be going through a post-natal depression
. Now, there are very good treatment options available for this and you don't have to be suffering in silence. You may need anti-depressant medication for a short while to help you overcome these symptoms. Alternatively, certain talking therapies like CBT can also help you effectively.
So, please consult a psychiatrist
at the earliest and take help.
Wish you all the best.
- Dr. Jonas Sundarakumar