hai ravjayamaha ,
with your information it is evident that you are in difficult situation handling stressful life. you also mention about poor social support & expressed suicidal ideas. so do not wait/hesitate to meet your nearest psychiatrist
. Remember Depression
is a treatable disorder . with adequate medication and psychotherapy
you will feel better. depression is common, prevalent & treatable. there are numerous good drugs (antidepressants) available in market. so i again insist you to meet nearest psychiatrist. i wish you good physical and mental health .