Welcome to HCM
We understand your concerns.Anxiety
is fear of un certain future eventualities. Apprehension is fear assuming what may happen in the future even without any triggers or experiences.
You mention some people suicided because of a weird music. Suicide happen every day due to so many reasons. For example, a girl fails in 8th grade commits suicide because she can't face next. Tell me how many 8th graders follow that girl?
Same wih you. Some people died of tsunami. Will you stop going to beach? Nver.
You are just a victim of apprehension. Think positive.