Hi there ~
I understand your concerns. Having CKD
can be a very scary proposition and serious if you are not getting regular dialysis
. I also wonder if you are under treatment for any other illnesses. As for yourself, it might be hard to take care of your condition considering you have been the caregiver for a person with a chronic disease. Burnout - both physical and psychological is common and I wonder if you need to visit with a psychiatrist
I hope this helped and I wish you the very best. Take care!