Hello and welcome to Healthcare Magic. Thanks for your query.
You seem to be in a lot of distress and appear to be having difficulty in coping up with difficulties. However, alcohol or smoking may not be the answers to your problems. Even though you say that they make you emotionally numb, they will definitely cause harmful consequences - both physical and mental.
I would suggest that you consult a psychiatrist
for help with your depression
, anger issues as well as your substance abuse
problems. There are effective treatment options available - in the form of medication or counselling
which will help him overcome your problems.
Wish you all the best.
Dr. Jonas Sundarakumar