It is common for milk secretion to be seen even during pregnancy
. If having the abortion
was inevitable according to your circumstances, then you must have gone for it after considering every aspect. It is very difficult to kill such a tiny life, yet, since it is history now, you should look ahead in to your life. Try to take a psychologist's advice in this matter as you seem to be very depressed and need a boost up of your morale. Good luck.