Split with my girlfriend and now she wont even talk to me

I split from my girlfriend of 8 months about 2 weeks ago after an arguement got out of hand.
Our problems began around 2 months ago after i told her and my family about how and when i was sexually abused as a 4 year old child whilst on holiday, on top of this i recently found out more about my murdered father who dies when i was 2, this caused me as a person to changed and become angry, argumentative.
we have always had an amazingly healthy sex life also.
From the beginning i fell for her and we spent lots of time together, we have the same circle of friends and always all had a good time together. However after i started talking about my past and my problems i changed as a person and became argumentative and sometimes angry, i self harmed on one occasion and have been known to throw things when i've been angry. My ex knew my problems and always agreed to help me through them, however when i changed i had a tendancy of taking things out on her and although i never meant to hurt her or put everything onto her i did, i massively regret everything and it has made me feel like everything in the past is my fault. I have recently started talking to a councillor and psychologsit and everything is well on the way to being happy in myslef again, however the one person who really matters to me isnt around now because of it, and although she knew it wasnt the real me at the time she now refuses to talk to me, and says that im nothing to her anymore because of what i did and how i put it all onto her. I didnt know what i was doing and i didnt think, but i couldnt control things in my life at times and it all got too much. Now she isnt talking to me and im finding it all so hard without her, i find it hard to go a day without texting her (with no reply) telling her my feelings and occasionaly try to call for the phone to be rapidly put down and on top of that my friends who are always out with her now means i cant see them...what do i do to get her back and to see im becoming the person i once was and who she fell in love with? please help i love her more than anything and would do anything for her.