Question: I'm having psychiatric problems sense I was in an accident. I will try to be quick and concise, but my brain goes where it wants.
I'm an RN working in L&D. I had to go to 4th floor for something, and on my way back down, the elevator fell about 5-8 feet with me (with a very loud BAM) and then I was stuck in that elevator for over 2 1/2 hours. While I was in the elevator I truly believed I was going to die at any moment.
They opened the doors and I could see the people on 4th floor. The nurses were talking about the cable had snapped (which I found out later was not true). The fire department came and said they were going to brace under the elevator and to just stay still for now.
I wanted to climb out (had something with me I could have climbed onto and got out) but I had such an image of being cut in half when elevator fell again, and I was told to stay still.
The hospital got ahold of the elevator repair guy and he told the fire department not to touch anything (I'm guessing he was afraid that they might cause the elevator to fall the rest of the way down). He was two hours away and I had to wait till he got there. I was afraid to move. I thought for sure the elevator was eventually going to give, fall, and I was going to die.
I had to take NTG, it helped some and I was afraid to take another because my BP is usually too low to take a second tablet. .They got me a telemetry monitor which I hooked myself up to. This took a while because the first two were defective. After I was on a cardiac monitor I felt a bit better that I wasn't going to be dying of
heart attack in next few minutes.
During these 2 1/2 hours they kept running the other 3 elevators by it. Every time the one beside mine or behind mine would move ...... mine would rock. I still can't believe they kept they one beside me running because it's the same type of elevator. They just kept telling me that all the elevators were on there own system. WELL, they didn't know what was wrong with my system. What if the movement of them caused mine to fall. What if they were transporting a critical patient in the other one like mine and it broke?
I guess in a nut shell, I spent 2 1/2 hours sure I was going to die.
This is the best hospital in the area and I've been receiving all subsequent care there (having problems with knees, low back, and psych).
I'm trying really hard to get over the psychiatric issues. Before this happened I was depressed and seeing a counceller. When I saw her on Monday following the accident she recommended and I was placed in the Psychiatric unit for three days. I don't feel like it did any good. It was too loud, there was very little individual therapy, and I think the
Ativan caused
memory loss. I'd say I remember less than 6 hours of the 3 days I was there. I only met one person who wasn't a drug addict. I think I spent most my time walking the halls reading a book (I don't remember the book).
Well, four days ago I finally convinced my
psychiatrist to change the Ativan. I started on Xanax. I think it's helping some, but I not sure about this tired feeling. I'm definitely having less chest pain/tightness which is great (I have spazmatic angina which is set off by
stress). When I have the chest pain / tightness it makes everything worse, so to have that decreased is major.
My psychiatrist sent me immediately back to work when I left the psychiatric hospital. At that time (due to
shoulder surgery) I was on light duty. I was going around teaching diabetic and CHF patients.
I made it through 3 1/2 days of this (although I had to take NTG multiple times and puked once). I didn't use the elevator I just took the stairs (tried to look at it as if maybe it would make me physically healthier). On the fourth day I followed up with doctor on my knee /
back injury and have been out of work sense (found out I have a torn disc).
Sorry about the length of post / question, but ocounceler wants me to tell it whenever I get the chance (believe me this is the short version).
I've been released by orthopedist to full duty now. Shoulder is healed.
I'm terrified to go back to my L&D job. What if in my decreased mental status I make a mistake? If I let something happen to a patient just because I didn't pick up on something ........ ?
Also, do you have any advice on how to move something from knowing it logically to believing it? Example: I know the chances of something happening to me while I was in the MRI was extremely low, but I couldn't help but feel I was going to die in it. I made it through most of it (crying all the while) but they eventually had to stop due to me throwing up inside it.
I'm sorry this is so long and maybe my questions are not clear, but any help, advice would be appreciated.