Question: Some months before my stroke, 4 to 6 months prior, my right eye vision would sometimes have an unseen blur spot in the peripheral. I wondered i it was from spending too much time in front of my computer, but why only my right eye?

I had a stroke Thanksgiving Day, 2013. Was put on Aggrenox, but one month latr, because of those damn headaches, I was switched to Plavix.
One month later, I felt a strange, unpleasant fatigue-inducing feeling in my head.
I went to Starbuck's, drunk two cups of coffee and made myself walk to downtown, where I met some girls. As I began to get excited, my field of vision would seem to lose peripheral focus, and I'd feel myself feeling like I wanted to zone out, pass out?

It got so bothersome I finally called 9-1-1, not listening to the three girls who insisted I sit down with them and drink some water, and rest. (Pretty unusual for a guy who LOVES girls!)

(I was also having a chilled tingling sensation in my lower back of my right forearm and back of my right hand, which would later be diagnosed as Radiculopathy from herniated bulging disks. At the time, I thought it was a warning sign of another stroke because when I had my stroke m right arm felt pins and needles for 10 seconds right before my speech screwed up).

I was bhospitaLIZED AND also put on Lipitor for cholesterol.

There were a few two times shortly after this I had smoggy vision.. There were a few times when I would feel myself zoning out and coming thisclose to passing out.

Fast forward 6 months, I was at the buffet walking, when, out of the blue, I felt myself zoning out and it felt as if I had to will myself from passing out.

Some months later I began o more often than not feel a sensation in my head, behind my right eye, making me feel fatiguish, lethargic. I would be sitting drinking my coffee. I'd get up to refill my cup and have two or so pells of feling like I wanted to pass out. I was still able to ride my bicycle, so I rode to the ER. They gave me Attivan, which almost immediately made me feel better. It was wonderful!

I was put on XANAX, back on Lorazepam, and now am on two 10 mg Libriums today. If Iit was not for Librium, I'd kill myself. It is that bad.

My new doctor thinks it de equilibrium. My ears always ringing when I wake up. (They had started this many months before my actual stroke) Fortunately, the ringing is not bad like it was at one time.

He can't decide whether its stroke nerve damage, or inner ear problems, herniated bulging neck and back disks, or a perfect storm of all of the above and something more.

ALWAYS when I wake up I feel my worst, till later in the afternoon, when I start feeling better, more like my old self.

WHAT is wrong? Can I ever be normal again? Will I have to kill myself if this country goes bankrupt and I lose my Medicaid / Medicare? I am on seven prescription meds.

It's NOT KNOWING that's got me toying with the idea of suicide. Am I the only f@#$ing person who feels like this?

Any exciting or exercise, or activity, such as masturbation, makes the feeling in my head more "feelable", although my Librium keeps m from feeling that terrifying zoning out feeling.

Can I be CURED?

Some chiropractor suggested stroke related low blood pressure, but...

When I'd go to the hospital with this my bp would be 55 / 100, yet... When I feel his I cannot get an erection to save my life, and it has gotten much harder to masturbate.