Brief Answer:
Try to develop new interests in life

Detailed Answer:
Hello again

Try to find positive in all these happenings. At least he is not blocking your XXXXXXX and this can be taken in positive manner. He unblocked you and then not blocked again and from this thing we can assume that he might be looking for your XXXXXXX though we cant say this with certainty. Think about positive aspects in your life, about your son, your daughter.

Try to develop interests again. You have good liking for music and try to listen all good music videos your loved. Attend lessons of Hebrew again. Believe in GOD and attend your community gatherings again.

Keep one thing in mind that he is ill and you have to keep a lot of patience to overcome all these sadness and bad things. Accept his illness and have faith GOD and yourself. I am sure you will feel better. Don't do anything wrong under influence of bad mood. As you have history of pancreatitis so avoid drinking in future if possible.

Thanks.

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Brief Answer:
Try to keep yourself busy in some work

Detailed Answer:
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Please don't let anger destroy you. Its justifiable because of ongoing difficult situation but try to keep yourself calm. Even if we assume no response from XXXXXXX still your first duty is to keep yourself healthy. You should try to manage situation in this manner only. Try to live on one hope that at least he has not blocked you. Please try to think positive. Negative thoughts further aggravate negative thoughts.

Try to engage yourself in some work be it any constructive work or lessons of Hebrew etc. If you don't like visit to a hospital then please at least consult your nearby doctor for sleep medicines. You were able to sleep with melatonin but now the situation is difficult so at least don't rely on alcohol and try to get some medicines for sleep. Try to sleep good so that you can function normally. Please try to follow my advise.

Thanks

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Brief Answer:
Please understand and accept his illness

Detailed Answer:
No I am not saying that. I am saying that if we assume he would not respond even then please try to pass that bad phase. I am still thinking about some positive thing. At least he didnt block you, this can be a positive thing. He might want to hear from you, but he is not responding because probably he is afraid of his delusions and hallucinatory voices. Try to understand that thing that he is ill and is not aware of what he is doing.

Try to accept his illness, at least he want XXXXXXX from you. Try to think about XXXXXXX no one is there to help him. Please don't do anything wrong.

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Brief Answer:
Don't mention about drinking and pills

Detailed Answer:
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Yes it's true that he should respond but we can't do anything for his poor response. He is ill and there is no way to contact him directly. You are bound by legal orders to not to contact him so you can't suggest him treatment. He is ill and can't become aware of your suffering so this could be the reason for his poor response.

Don't think telling him about drinking and pills because this may make his condition worsened. His delusion may become strong due to that actions and you may also land up in legal trouble. Just mention that you are in pain and are suffering.

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Brief Answer:
Because you can't contact him till August

Detailed Answer:
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You may land in legal trouble because you can't contact him directly because of court orders. Secondly if you take pills and alcohol with intention to end life and tell him, you may further end up in legal problems because this would make his delusions strong and he may behave abnormally. This is my opinion and I am not saying this with certainty.

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